Loft Accessory

Great way to display books !!

Perfect way to display my books in the small area I have.  Love this Рfloating shelves Рvery creative!


December 24, 2009 at 4:20 am 1 comment

Loving this loft

My income will probably never allow me to choose a place like this…….but one can dream ūüôā

I fell in love....

December 22, 2009 at 3:09 pm 1 comment

Loving the Season

I had a really good day! ¬†All my shopping done, presents wrapped and I still have money left in the bank ūüôā

My family is together – I love the holidays!!

I got B’s in my two fall classes – not the A’s I would have liked – but I’m learning to improve my study habits and will now turn my attention to my upcoming Management and Psychology classes. ¬†I’d like to say thanks to everyone who’s helped me through my first 3 classes – whether it’s been a late night talk, help answering/understanding a topic, or helping me realize how wonderful a library can be…….you’re all so special and I love you!

Wishing everyone a very Merry Christmas!!

December 22, 2009 at 4:39 am 1 comment


it couldn’t be a choice she made on her own
she doesn’t have the courage

why are people allowing her to make decisions?

your¬†unstable,¬†you shouldn’t be allowed to make decisions


you can’t do it, you won’t make it……

seven years…your a bad parent,¬†you fail in everything, you¬†don’t live the way¬†you should, why don’t you learn, get away from me, why don’t you learn, leave me alone, why don’t you learn, don’t talk to me, why don’t you learn, Wendi….get it through your head, why don’t you learn…….

want to know me? the me that is amazing? the me that lives on the inside.¬†Hello…….

She’s not the person he says¬†she is…….she is a¬†parent….she is a great parent……She has an amazing son that is 18…..Simon…..her first born, so many memories, so many firsts….leader of the family…..mature……responsible and devoted….she couldn’t be more proud…….her beautiful daughter 16……Laura Jean……she’s always said…..she’s not my daughter….to bright and gifted……she adapts and thrives in every situation……everything¬†I wasn’t……how could I¬†ever take credit for her.¬† but lately…….the me that is amazing…..see’s the woman emerging in¬†her daughter and knows…..she’s mine…….this wonderful, intelligent child is mine.¬†¬†her baby boy 14….AJ……the sweetest boy you could ever want.¬† Simplistic and loving…….nothing complicates his life.¬† You get what you see…….and¬†she hopes he never loses all of his tenderness.¬†¬†she¬†know he¬†will be a wonderful husband and father someday……She’s a great parent…..the me that is amazing.


she is great…….

she thinks…..I could be great……when he’s not around, she thinks…..i could be great

she might fail, she might not be smart, she might not live the way she should………..but she is amazing……open that door and see……..she could be great…..don’t put her away… your eyes…….don’t dismiss her….she does have worth…..see how amazing she can be.

she’s growing, she’s getting stronger……yeah, she’s gonna be great……stick around……she’s gonna be great.

now……the time is now…….she will not stay…….her freedom to enticing…..she will not stay……she see’s a way……she will not stay……it’s time to go….a chance……she smiles to herself…..the time is now…..the me that is amazing will not stay.

you didn’t see, you didn’t look……hurt, scrutiny, insults and control…..beneath it all she was amazing…..she survived…..she is amazing

she will leave you alone, she will get away from you, she won’t talk to you anymore…….

FREEDOM…….TRUST, LOVE, HONESTY, COMPASSION, HUMOR, HUMILITY….the ability to share yourself completely with another person is such a rare gift……what was so willingly given…..was crushed and is no more.

she is great …….. don’t ya think

the me that is amazing

December 21, 2009 at 4:41 am 1 comment

Why are you nice

Why are you nice

you don’t know
you can’t understand
showing you hurts
what is this
who are you
why are you in my life
once your in ….. your in
what does that mean
is it simple
accept the gift
take what’s given
no tricks
are you sure
I feel foolish
showing you hurts
I want to turn away
is this right
who are you
I hurt
why do we talk
I don’t know you
how did this start
do I want this
why are you nice
you don’t know me
I won’t let it be
I may go
why are you nice
I don’t understand
nothings simple

two worlds, far apart, momentarily collide……..still very different

December 21, 2009 at 4:38 am 2 comments

A Time Comes In Your Life

A Time Comes In Your Life

A time comes in your life when you finally get it. When in the midst of all your fears and insanity, you stop dead in your tracks, and somewhere the voice inside your head cries out ~ ENOUGH!

Enough fighting and crying or struggling to hold on. And, like a child quieting down after a blind tantrum, your sobs begin to subside, you shudder once or twice, you blink back your tears, and through a mantle of wet lashes you begin to look at the world through new eyes.

This is your awakening.

You realize that it’s time to stop hoping and waiting for something to change or for happiness, safety and security to come galloping over the next horizon.

You come to terms with the fact that he is not Prince Charming and you are not Cinderella.

And you realize in the real world there aren’t always fairy tale endings (or beginnings for that matter), and that any guarantee of “happily ever after” must begin with you; and in the process, a sense of serenity is born of acceptance.

You awaken to the fact that you’re not perfect, that not everyone will always love, appreciate, or approve of who or what you are, and that’s okay. (They’re entitled to their own views and opinions.) And you learn the importance of loving and championing yourself; and in the process a sense of newfound confidence is born of self-approval.

You stop complaining and blaming other people for the things they did to you (or didn’t do for you) and you learn that the only thing you can really count on is the unexpected.

You learn that people don’t always say what they mean or mean what they say, and that not everyone will always be there for you; and that it’s not always about you. So, you learn to stand on your own, and to take care of yourself and in the process, a sense of safety and security is born of self-reliance.

You stop judging and pointing fingers and you begin to accept people as they are, and to overlook their shortcomings and human frailties; and in the process, a sense of peace and contentment is born of forgiveness.

You realize that much of the way you view yourself and the world around you is as a result of all the messages and opinions that have been ingrained into your psyche.

You begin to sift through all that you’ve been fed about how you should behave, how you should look, and how much you should weigh; what you should wear and where you should shop, and what you should drive; how and where you should live, and what you should do for a living; who you should sleep with, who you should marry, and what you should expect of a marriage; the importance of having and raising children, or what you owe your parents.

You learn to open up to new worlds and different points of view. And you begin re-assessing and redefining who you are and what you really stand for.

You learn the difference between wanting and needing and you begin to discard the doctrines and values you’ve outgrown, or should never have bought into to begin with; and in the process you learn to go with your instincts.

You learn that it is truly in giving that we receive. And that there is power and glory in creating and contributing; and you stop maneuvering through life merely as a “consumer” looking for your next fix.

You learn that principles such as honesty and integrity are not the outdated ideals of a bygone era, but the mortar that holds together the foundation upon which you must build a life.

You learn that you don’t know everything, it’s not your job to save the world and that you can’t teach a pig to sing.

You learn to distinguish between guilt, and responsibility, and the importance of setting boundaries, and learning to say NO.

You learn that the only cross to bear is the one you choose to carry, and that martyrs get burned at the stake. Then you learn about love. Romantic love and the familial love. How to love, how much to give in love, when to stop giving, and when to walk away. You learn not to project your needs or your feelings onto a relationship.

You learn that you will not be more beautiful, more intelligent, more lovable or important because of the man or woman on your arm or the child that bears your name.

You learn to look at relationships as they really are and not as you would have them be.

You stop trying to control people, situations, and outcomes.

You learn that just as people grow and change, so it is with love and you learn that you don’t have the right to demand love on your terms just to make you happy. And, you learn that alone does not mean lonely. And you look in the mirror and come to terms with the fact that you will never be a size 5 or a perfect 10, and you stop trying to compete with the image inside your head and agonizing over how you “stack up.”

You also stop working so hard at putting your feelings aside, smoothing things over and ignoring your needs. You learn that feelings of entitlement are perfectly OK. And that it is your right to want things and to ask for the things that you want and that sometimes it is necessary to make demands.

You come to the realization that you deserve to be treated with love, kindness, sensitivity, and respect; and you won’t settle for less. And, you allow only the hands of a lover who cherishes you to glorify you with his/her touch and in the process you internalize the meaning of self-respect.

And you learn that your body really is your temple, and you begin to care for it and treat it with respect. You begin eating a balanced diet, drinking more water and taking more time to exercise. You learn that fatigue diminishes the spirit and can create doubt and fear. So you take more time to rest. And, just as food fuels the body, laughter fuels our soul. So you take more time to laugh and to play.

You learn that for the most part, in life you get what you believe you deserve and that much of life truly is a self-fulfilling prophecy.

You learn that anything worth achieving is worth working for, and that wishing for something to happen is different from working toward making it happen. More importantly, you learn that in order to achieve success you need direction, discipline, and perseverance.

You also learn that no one can do it all alone and that it’s OK to risk asking for help. You learn that the only thing you must truly fear is the great robber baron of all time. FEAR itself. You learn to step right into and through your fears because you know that whatever happens you can handle it, and to give in to fear is to give away the right to live life on your terms. And you learn to fight for your life and not to squander it living under a cloud of impending doom.

You learn that life isn’t always fair, you don’t always get what you think you deserve; and that sometimes-bad things happen to unsuspecting, good people. On these occasions, you learn not to personalize things. You learn that God isn’t punishing you or failing to answer your prayers. It’s just life happening.

And you learn to deal with evil in its most primal state ~ the ego. You learn negative feelings such as anger, envy and resentment must be understood and redirected, or they will suffocate the life out of you, and poison the universe that surrounds you. You learn to admit when you are wrong and to building bridges instead of walls.

You learn to be thankful and to take comfort in many of the simple things we take for granted, things that millions of people upon the earth can only dream about: a full refrigerator, clean running water, a soft warm bed, a long hot shower. Slowly, you begin to take responsibility for yourself by yourself; and you make yourself a promise to never betray yourself and to never settle for less than your heart’s desire.

And you hang a wind chime outside your window so you can listen to the wind. And you make it a point to keep smiling, keep trusting, and to stay open to every wonderful possibility. Finally, with courage in your heart and with Spirit by your side you take a stand; you take a deep breath, and you begin to design the life that you want to live as best as you can.

~Author Unknown~

December 21, 2009 at 4:29 am Leave a comment

I smile

I Smile

to always say how I feel
to be who I want to be
to express myself
to love and be loved
to be anxiety free

I smile, knowing I’ll be ok
I’m content, hopeful, and grateful
I smile, no promises, some regret…….all truth

December 21, 2009 at 4:20 am Leave a comment

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